My Darling Son

As any mother can relate I love my children unconditionally.  I carried both of them for nine-ish months, gave birth to them, I would give my life for them and do it happily.  This will be hard for some to understand but as a mother my love for my children will always come first.

So today, as I was writing my blog about being a crusader my son called me in tears.  When I asked him why he was upset he explained that it's because he just realised what an awesome mom he had and he's sad because he didn't realise that before.

All together now....AWWWWWE!

My tender hearted son is upset because he didn't realise it.  I tried to sooth him the best I could over the phone.  I told him that I know he loves me and that not matter what I will always love him.  I may get angry at a behaviour but I will always love him.  I don't know if it helped but by the end of the conversation he wasn't so weepy.

This one phone call made me realise that he is the reason I am a crusader.  For him I would fight to the death.  You cross my tender hearted son, you will deal with momma bear.  Mark my words it will not be pretty.

My son has issues as many of you know.  He struggles daily to be as good as he can be.  He's not always successful but he tries.  There are days when I want to ship both my kids off to boarding school, my daughter is all for it.  My son, not so much.  The fact of the matter is, no matter how frustrated I get with either of them they are and always will be my babies, and the absolute owners of my heart.  It's a big heart there's room for everyone, but they are the main inhabitants.  Guests are always welcome.

I'm so very blessed to have two such remarkable kids.  My life would be meaningless without them and I am honoured they chose me as their mother.  I will do my best to do right by them and will sacrifice everything I have for their happiness.  My son's one phone call was all I needed to know that I am a good mom, I am worthy of them. Anyone who has a differing opinion can go pound sand because the two most important people in my life love me back as much as I love them.

T.

Let's Try This Again.

For whatever reason, I cannot access my original Random Thoughts so consider it officially retired.  Luckily before all these issues started I imported the entire file to my computer and am able to resurrect it here on my new blog.

So as of now, Random Thoughts is now All Right Already and I will be adding to it as I have always my rants and raves about life and all the joys and crap it throws at me.  I have chosen a few I will not be posting because they are far more personal than I should have posted and for that reason will remain unpublished.

Thanks,
Tammy.